the curious case about love.. and the relationships we have with people...

arrrgh...
there's no denying the fact that loving someone is such a beautiful feeling...
it's beauty is such that no words could describe exactly how beautiful it is..
it becomes more beautiful when the feeling is mutual.. when that other person loves you back just as much as you love them..
but to me...
this beautiful feeling can always hurt so much too...
but is it really love if it hurts so much?

loving someone who hurt u before,
loving someone but couldn't tell them,
or loving someone and telling them, but that feeling isn't mutual, and so they tell you off..
when these things happen,
you have no choice but to accept how things are,
and because of that strong feelings you have for them,
all you wish for is to see them smiling..
you'll say that it makes you happy to see them smile..
but the truth is.. everytime they smile with somebody else,
it creates a hole in that heart of yours that hurts so much..
and you try to deny it..
but denying it makes it hurts even more..

denial hurts..

it's truly amazing how this beautiful feelings can hurt so much if you're unlucky enough..

then there's friendships..
how long you've been friends don't matter,
sometimes, even the most stupid of things can destroy it..

this is why sometimes i feel that its better to just remain in secluded.. isolated..

but then, nobody in this world can stand solitude..

no matter how painful it might get,
we all need someone to love.. to cherish for life...

apiz fell to the samurai's sword @ Wednesday, February 15, 2012